Faith & quite a bit of music.

First off, I really have missed blogging my heart out. But it turns our college makes you a little busier than expected. Since I ditched FHE to do homework (yes, go on, judge me.... hahaha!) & finished it way earlier than expected, instead of logging onto Netflix & catching up on PLL... I decided I'd write again. I have so much to tell all of you.

So guess what? You remember all of those countdowns I posted... like... the 100 days until my mission papers went in!? Well folks! My papers went in and just last Thursday MY mission call was assigned. That means 'the brethren' all looked at my dorky picture and were inspired to where I should spend the 18 months of my life serving the Lord. I COULD NOT BE MORE EXCITED.

It wasn't a smooth road like we all hope for. But boy does the man upstairs know what he is doing. I turned my papers in January 5th 2014. Not by chance, obviously I wanted to turn them in that day for SO long. But as the time got closer to me turning in my papers it seemed impossible to get them in on that exact day. I was frustrated, stubborn and in need of a little humbling. The Lord knows me so well. He relieved my anxieties and by nothing short of a miracle... my papers were submitted! Not even a week later my dear stake president sent an email to me telling me to get ahold of him. (eek! I knew something was wrong.) I was told that I needed to get some more information, then to re-submit my papers. I was really frustrated then. I did as I was told and was told my call could be delayed up to a week or two months. There was no way to know!

Lets just say God is full of sweet sweet mercy! That my call will most likely be here this week! I will finally get to hold a call in my hand and I cannot wait.

Through all these small but very hard trials, my faith was pushed along with my patience. I learned so much about myself & Heavenly Fathers plan for me. I learned how much easier life is, if you just put your complete faith in the Lord and press on. As Jeffery R Holland put so well "No misfortune is so bad that whining about it wont make it worse."

So thats that, stop your whining and try trusting the One who knows you better than anyone, who loves you more than you can imagine, and seems to have a better perspective on things than any mortal.

love,
Mo

My Best Friend

I just had to post something about my very best friend today. I was thinking about him during conference and how absolutely proud of him I am! Although I miss him... SO much... I wouldn't want him anywhere else. & thankfully tomorrow is Pday so I will *hopefully* get a email from this cute missionary. 

I don't really have a lot to say other than. Boy, do I miss him! 

Come what may... & LOVE it.

Lets just say that the beginning of this week was not one of the brightest of my days. It was just flat out... HARD. I didn't see myself getting out of that rut any time soon. It is hard to miss your best friend every second but know that he is e x a c t l y where he is supposed to be. It is hard to miss my family & my home-- whenever I get bits of home at my home away from home, my heart aches. I miss my big teddy bear Joshy teasing me- but never failing to make me smile. I miss my grandmas hugs and long talks where she would let me ramble about the same things over & over again. I my Randy's laugh-- if you haven't heard his laugh, you've missed out. I miss hanging out with my sister & shopping with someone who knows whats up. I miss talking to Jess about all my medical nerdy stuff. I miss my Sophie.
It is hard to be an adult, to get myself to get groceries, do my laundry, keep a budget, get to class, do homework, study, study, study, work, go to church, try to forget for a second that my whole entire world has changed & there is absolutely nothing I can do about it but "press forward..." (i'll get back to the meaning of that later in this post.)
Well anyways all these things that are so 'hard' in my life are also things that I wouldn't change. I have learned SO much about myself being down here. In high school I thought I knew myself but I also second guessed my every move. I was so unsure about so many things. College has helped me realize who I am & who I am going to be & what is really important in life. So what is so important? I'll tell you...

• Family 
• Education
• Religion 
• Love
• Phone calls
• Kindness
• Goals

I say family because you don't realize how important some people are to your puzzle until your not with them 24/7. Being away from home has made me feel SO thankful that I have the wonderful family that I do!
Education is the whole reason you are here. You need to absorb it. Your paying thousand of dollars, you might as well enjoy it.
Religion, It really doesn't matter your faith. You have to have something to hold onto. I had a silly thought today walking home from class... "The government knows me by a number, I'm just a freaking number!" well a few moments "Well I guess what really matters is that Heavenly Father knows my NAME!"I'm such a nerd! hahahaha.
Love is so important to me for multiple reasons. I love Braxton with all my heart & without love, I don't know if I could do this. It has been so hard not to talk to him all the time & to stay super positive in all our contact.
Phone calls can be a life saver on a lonely night. I have had this multiple times...
Kindness is important! No matter where you are in life. You don't know what someone has gone through, is going through or what they will go through... BE NICE.
Goals, goals, goals are so important. Along with time management!

Anyways, while I was in my self pity for a good 3 days. I felt like it wasn't going to end & I didn't know what to do. Well Wednesday I went to institute. & I read a scripture that was a slap in the face for me to wake up & stop the crap.
2 Nephi 31: 19-20
"... for ye have not come thus far save it by the word of Christ with unshaken faith relying wholly upon the merits of him who is mighty save.
20. "Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in christ, having a perfect brightness of hope, and a love of God & of all men. Wherefore, if ye shall press forward feasting upon the words of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the father: ye shall have eternal life."
Well, lets break this down a bit. "ye must press forward" I needed to hear that, I need to go on!
"having a perfect brightness of hope" lets just say I was feeling pretty hopeless...
"and a love of God" I think I just needed the reminder of the things that were going on in my life were for my good (see D&C 121:7)
"if ye shall press forward feasting upon the words of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the father: ye shall have eternal life" That made me think that if I endure to the end, if I press forward, If I maintain my faith, I will have eternal life AKA happiness. So I drug myself out of a hole from just reading two verses from the scriptures. Pretty cool if I do say so myself.

I'm doing so much better. Also if you look at quotes on pinterest... they help too (:

I couldn't just pick one.
Hope you feel a little happier after reading this.
xoxo
morg.

the countdown.

I can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that my life is seriously about to change, but at the same time I KNOW it's going to! I leave for college in 23 days. That is seriously NOTHING. I am so excited to move and create my own improved self (or so i'm hoping...). BUT I am also extremely terrified for the changes that lie ahead for me. 

With my busy schedule it is very hard for me to even think about life after this week. I'm working two jobs, 40+ hours a week.  I'm not complaining because I enjoy being busy and earning some money, but with no time, I'm feeling quite unprepared! Not only for college, but for Brax to leave on his mission. Not that I have to physically prepare for anything, but I will be losing my best friend for TWO years. I also shouldn't say that I'm losing him, because I'm definitely not... but thing will definitely be different! 

These are two major events happening within days of each other and I'm hoping I can just cope with it all while being away from my family, home, and friends. 

I'm also realizing how different/sad it's going to be to leave some things behind... like...

My CNA job- I never thought I'd care for these Residents like I do. I haven't even gathered up the courage to mention it to them. Some may not care, but I know a few will; at least I hope so. Not only am I going to miss my residents, but my coworkers and management are seriously INCREDIBLE. I've never met so many great people in one setting. Whenever you think of a owner of something in this field (at least for me anyway) I pictured a money hungry selfish family. But boy, was I proved wrong. The owner of my facility is one of the most genuine people I've ever met! 

My family- Speaking of great people, my family is amazing. I may be a little biased, but for being polar opposites we all get along pretty well. I don't know what I'm going to do without...

Grandma and I's talks. Along with her impeccable ability to pick out produce (I know that may sound silly, but I'm in love with fruits and veggies, and she just gets it!) She has been such a huge influence on me in my life, and I don't know what I'll do without her constant encouragement. 

Grandpa's ability to fix things. Although he is so tired of fixing things, its his talent. I don't know what I'll do without him. Luckily, he has taught me things I will need away from home. Plus, he is so good he could tell me how to fix anything over the phone. I also am truly going to miss his sense of humor. Not a lot of people get his sense of humor... but boy... he is one funny man.

Joshy's humor. The difference between Joshy and Grandpa's humor, is that anyone and everyone laughs at whatever Josh says. I've accused my sister of laughing at him for the stupidest reasons (like when he isn't even trying to be funny). Josh is one of the best people I've ever met. You know how you pass a homeless person on the street without thinking about it? Josh is not like that. He'll stop and chat with the homeless person, give him the cash in his pocket. 

Alysia's sense of style. What am I going to do without being able to have her come over and say 'What should I wear?' She is a fashion queen. I absolutely love getting her help style, decor, and fitness. It will also be a bummer when I realize that I actually have to start taking pictures if I want them, because my sister-who-should-be-a-photographer isn't there to take them for me!

Jess and I's medical conversations (even though we drive everyone nuts). We seriously could talk for hours about blood, guts, and cells. (although, he is working on his bachelors right now and he surpassed my level. I'll catch up though ;)) 

Sophie- I JUST WILL MISS MY PUPPY OK?

Braxton's Family- I've become closer than expected to this family over the past year! I'm going to miss card games, family night, and halloween marathons with them! 

My Ward- Even though they may believe I am inactive now (which I'm not, so STOP... I just work EVERY sunday of my life). My ward is so great and I just can't imagine not having those few people who are like second families.

Well enough with the mushy stuff. Lets talk shopping! I have nearly got everything for college and I couldn't be more relieved! Her is a preview of my future-apartment!

This is my comforter, thank you target for helping me love my future bed. Seriously though... this was only $20!
I have never been so excited to buy such silly things... like- tupperware, hangers, pillow, sheets, and laundry baskets.

but I guess thats growing for ya!


anyways, see ya later.